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Soulmate, Myself:
Omega Point

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reprinted from the "To face unafraid the plans that we made" writing:

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine, I keep my eyes wide open all the time

E. In the old Johnny Cash song, “Walk The Line,” he sings “I keep a close watch on this heart of mine, I keep my eyes wide open all the time.” This describes me.

K. (silence)

E. Virtually every day I “take my temperature” to see, or to confirm, what I really need in an eternal Darling Companion. Everything I said, above, about the tremendous magnetism of studying together, planning and preparing, building a life together, is incredibly important to me. And the image of the “nuclear fire” of Carol Danvers comes close to what I really feel. And yet, as I drift in the energies of what you are to me, and what I need for my eternal life, there’s something missing, and I feel the deficit.

K. What are you seeing, Elenchus?

E. In some of our related discussions, I stated that it is “non-negotiable” for me not to have a girl like Jamie.

E. The issue has nothing to do with physical beauty. You have more than enough. But Jamie personifies a certain “surrender and acceptance” toward the divine will that I’m not sure you have. She has suffered for the truth, lived it when it was not popular. She’s service-minded in a superlative way, is very inspiring to me, and makes me feel that she represents a perfect companion to enter “the harvest fields of God.”

K. What about the studying together aspect?

E. That’s very important to me, but Jamie is a top honor student, and intellectual in her own right, and she would offer this form of shared experience, as well.

K. You’ve not recovered from the time I was very unkind to you.

E. This is probably true, but the larger issue is, I don’t really know who you are, Kriss - I don’t know if your desire to live the truth and the spiritual life matches my own. Eternity is a long time to be with someone if you don't see eye-to-eye. I’m not going to make any decisions now, but will employ Lao-Tzu’s advice - which is not so far removed from Johnny Cash’s statement:

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Elenchus. I’m not happy with how I left things.

Kairissi. I think you were not happy with me.

E. That’s not it; yes, I’ve been angry about certain things of the past, but that’s not uppermost on my mind.

K. I think, with you and me, there’s more going on here than just having an argument. Whether we like it or not, we have something together, and it’s not going away.

E. I said some things to you that aren’t really true.

K. You said some things are “non-negotiable” with you, and you don’t think that I can give you those things.

E. I want to take back some things that I said. They weren’t right.

K. Did you say them because you were angry?

E. No. At the time I thought I was correct. But I’ve realized some new things, and I want to change what I said.

K. I think you were saying that you wanted Jamie.

E. That’s not exactly what I said, but I want to change any impression of that. I could never be with Jamie and be happy.

K. When Jamie and Landon were arguing, she told him, “You don’t know what you want!” – and you keep changing and saying different things.

E. I am not perfect. But I’ve always told you the truth – the truth as I’ve seen it. That’s all any human being can do. We’re a work in progress, and we never see the complete picture. But I’m trying to get closer to what’s real.

K. (sighing) You’re right. That’s all anyone can do. I think I’m angry, and it’s coloring what I’m saying to you, but I don’t want to be angry. Can we start this talk again?

E. You’re doing fine, everything’s ok. It’s just that, I’ve realized some things about us, and I’ve been unfair to you.

K. But… you were right… I did do some bad things to you… and I’m not like Jamie… and so I can’t be that girl you need to be with… I can’t be like her.

E. You don’t have to be Jamie.

K. Will you explain what you’ve seen?

E. There are several things - if I could talk this out.

E. There's something about Einstein, when he was a small boy. His father gave him a compass to play with. The child shook the strange device, attempting to command the needle, but no matter what he did it always came back to north. Later in his autobiography, Einstein commented that this was the beginning of his understanding that invisible, hidden forces guide the universe.

K. The whole Earth is a giant magnet, with lines of magnetic force all around it. And the compass needle wants to come into alignment with these unseen forces.

E. And it occurred to me, it’s not just a compass needle but almost everything is shaped and guided by invisible energies. Rupert Sheldrake calls these “morphic fields” which, he says, organize energy at every level of the cosmos.

K. And this would include Twin Souls.

E. Silver Birch said that the attraction between Twins is “so magnetic, so overwhelming.”

K. Magnetic! – with invisible lines of force directing them. And do Twins have their own “compass needle” that always points them in the direction of each other?

E. It is something like that.

K. The eternal marriage cannot be “sundered” or set aside. The hidden lines of magnetic force drawing Twins to each other are not going away.

E. And this is why Twins can’t just be with another pretty face. Those invisible lines of force will cause them much suffering if they try this.

K. Are they eternally stuck with each other?

E. I suppose the answer is yes, but their task is to do this the right way, and then they won’t want to be anywhere else.

K. The delighted hand-cuffed prisoners. Are we there yet?

E. I think we are, or very close.

K. Just a little fine-tuning to get the compass needle straight? But you have some explaining to do - because you almost convinced me that Jamie would be the better choice.

E. Remember, one’s Twin mate is not a choice; at least, not at the surface of personality. It’s the soul’s choice.

K. But tell me why you see things differently about Jamie.

E. All of this is very hard to explain, but I’ll begin by reminding us of the essential roles or job descriptions of Love and Wisdom. Love’s main function is to personify “what we stay alive for” (WSF).

K. She's the light and life of the home, the marriage, and the family. She delights in aesthetics, in all things pertaining to beauty, grace and loveliness. She is his heart, leading him to warmth and compassion, empathy and nurturing.

E. She is the focal point of his happiness. Without her, without WSF, her life and light, Wisdom would drift into a hopeless and despairing frame of mind. After a time, nothing would be worth it to him, and he would seek for ways not to go on. It is impossible to overstate the importance of Love to him, because, he well senses, without her, he would die, slide into insanity, not be able to live.

K. And Wisdom’s role?

E. Wisdom is more oriented toward the external world, skillfully negotiating it, with work and projects. As he comes into his own powers, he glories in rationality and logic, knowledge and insights. He loves to unravel the mysteries of the universe. He finds great satisfaction in discerning meaning and purpose, the reasons why things are as they are. In this quest, he strives, most of all, to know the mind of God. But, tell us, Kriss, what is the balancing factor in all this?

K. The balancing factor is that Love and Wisdom share overlapping domains. She is not devoid of Wisdom, and he is no stranger to Love. But each presides over, shall we call it, a default setting, a primary focus and primary natural strength.

E. As we’ve said, Love is not foreign to him, however, never once has he been accused of being the light and life of the home.

K. (small smile)

E. But, concerning Jamie, I suddenly saw something. I had great trouble imagining her as the light and life of the home, the WSF, the focus of my happiness. And this realization shocked me – because, how could this be? She’s a loving and fine person, and so why my inability to see her as Love?

K. I would never have guessed this to be a problem for you.

E. And then I saw the reason. I was not seeing her as Love but another form of Wisdom! I’m wondering if I can make myself clear? The whole area of charitable service and entering “the harvest fields of God” is extremely important to me. It’s what I see myself doing.

K. Because it’s part of your future work, and Wisdom is very concerned with projects in the world.

E. That’s correct, and the service-mindedness of Jamie, while attractive in its own right, also seemed to fit in so well with what I wanted to do.

K. Elenchus, you see yourself as a Spirit Guide, a kind of missionary to the disadvantaged, and you saw Jamie, not as a lover so much but, as a work-mate, a fellow Guide and missionary.

E. It was shocking for me to see this. But Wisdom is not to marry Wisdom, is not attracted to Wisdom in that way. Wisdom wants to marry Love, and is drawn to her as his own personal “salvation”; in that, Love supplies to him the WSF, the light and life, that he well senses he does not have enough of.

K. It should be pointed out that there’s nothing wrong with Jamie. She’s a perfect girl – just not perfect for you. To the right guy, she’ll be Love as it’s meant to be.

E. In all this mental turmoil, trying to sort this out, I came to a clearer understanding of how Love and Wisdom are to interact with each other.

K. I’d like you to say something about that because, though you’ve said I don’t need to be like Jamie, the fact remains that you do admire her very much. And I’d like you to admire me, too, but I don’t see how I could become as “good” as Jamie.

E. First of all, let us excuse ourselves from Jamie now and allow her to go her own way. She is not your standard of excellence. Your own soul will inform you as to what you are to blossom and manifest as. You already are a good person, and I think I now see this more clearly than you do.

K. Thank you, but I distracted you - you were about to say how you came to a better understanding of how Love and Wisdom are to interact with each other.

E. Here’s one thing: Wisdom achieves insights into the nature of things – but he does this not because he’s so smart but because he learns to “open a channel” to be taught directly from God. And so, if he does this the right way, he’s not giving his own opinions or private agenda but when he speaks he does so under inspiration. Again, if he does this in the right way, he has the authority of God when he speaks – not on everything, of course, but on “official” matters concerning their marriage and work-life. When he “opens a channel” to be taught, then what he says has divine sanction.

K. In the world this principle is so abused. The churches teach that the wife must obey whatever the husband says just because he’s the male. And usually he’s selfish and just doing his own thing.

E. And that’s a perversion of the process.

K. In some of our earlier discussions you said that things should always be decided on a consensus basis, that we should agree, and that the mate with the best insight should make the decision. What’s your view now?

E. There’s still much to commend with this view. The best model is Elizabeth Fry’s service group, and how each member “goes within” to see who’s best to lead a certain project. Even so, I’m not sure if this is the best guide to decision-making for Twins. We spoke of default settings. For example, anything having to do with the light and life of the home, the WSF, the affective domain, I’m not likely to resist your best judgment. And I have my default setting, too, and I’m going to be very hard to beat on my own home-turf -- projects in the world or unraveling cosmic mysteries.

K. I think you’re probably right.

E. In any case, I would always listen to what you have to say, and it would always be my great motivation to give you whatever’s needed for your happiness; but, with all things, I would have to be assured that there’re no hidden detriment or long-term disadvantage for you.

K. I’m reminded of what the mystic Andrew Jackson Davis said: Love always “obeys the commandments” of Wisdom because he’s not free-wheeling and just doing what he wants but – if he’s connected to Source – has the authority, from the very top, to lead the family. If he's inspired by God, then his directives take on the force of "commandments."

E. In our world there’s so much abuse of authority that any thinking girl disdains and hesitates to put herself under the dominion of any man. And who can blame her? However, the eternal marriage is not a John-and-Mary production. Wisdom will not abuse the trust of Love, and will always act for her best interests.

K. If he did not, then he wouldn’t be Wisdom.

E. That’s right. The eternal marriage is not for children, or those who think immaturely, and now we can see why, in the lower levels of Summerland, many have not even heard of Twin love and marriage. They're not ready for it.

K. Concerning decision-making, consensus and egalitarianism might be fine for some situations, but what happens when two don’t see eye-to-eye? You can be part of a group, but groups come and go, but when Twins have an issue to be decided then they have to sort this out as they're in this for keeps. Somebody needs to be overall in charge to break any potential impasse.

E. As we’ve said, Love is not without good sense, but Wisdom, in his full strength and soaring, is naturally able to discern a wider field of factors impinging upon an issue. This is what he does for a living, he thinks about things, rolls them around in his head, weighs them. And in all of this mental survey, along with his direct link to God, he is the one of the duo who is most likely to get it right when it comes to questions concerning overall direction for the marriage and family.

K. I have to agree. It does feel right. It’s what Wisdom does naturally. I can do all those things, too, but he “analyses things to death,” does it for pleasure and lingers, doesn't mind going into overtime, while I’m trying to get back to thinking about the children and the marriage-home. Even though you and I are the same, there's a real difference between us. But tell me, Elenchus, what is the practical effect of all this? How do you envision our life as a couple?

E. I would like you to create the details, as you see fit, of running the whole area of house-and-family plus related items of aesthetics. I might offer a comment here or there, but, given your competence, I doubt I’ll be doing little more than “rubber stamping” your initiatives.

K. And that’s what I was expecting.

E. Now, concerning my own field of projects, this where we get a little non-traditional. If my name were “John” I’d go out into the world each day, do my thing, you wouldn’t see me till night, we’d have banal interaction and be done. But this is absolutely not what I want for us. I’m in love with you and don’t like being apart from you. I want you near me and a full partner in all I do. I’ve already compiled a list of 16 major areas, goals, activities, all sorts of things for our lives – some work and some play – and you can tell me things that you'd like, but I don’t want to do anything without you.

K. But, Elenchus, some of these projects you’ve been thinking about and studying for decades, and I won’t be able to add anything.

E. Don’t you worry about that. That's not the big reason I'm hiring you. You are my WSF, you are my to-die-for light and life, and I’m marrying you because you are the one I want to be with and do everything with. I can’t live without you. And concerning knowledge, you will be learning, developing, a great deal every day, and will soon be right in there with understanding, and matching me, in everything, and I look forward to discussing everything with you. I really want to have you right there so we can talk about everything we're gaining.

K. I can see that those entering the true marriage must have no cloaked agendas, everything on the table. Each must come to the marriage in complete guilelessness and good faith, opening their hearts and spirits, to each other and to be led by God. Each must be willing to fulfill, and grow into, a cosmic role as Love or Wisdom. Each must be intent upon giving to the other -- just as we discussed in "Georgia Girl" -- each submitting to the other in certain respects; and yet Wisdom has been designated by God to have the final word on all matters. And yet, even in this, there is great mitigation as Wisdom is duty bound, in the courts of heaven, by law and by heart impulse, to place the interests of Love above his own.

E. Yes, absolutely. And I received a wonderful insight. In our discussions on evolution, we learned that there is no “law of the jungle” but that nature, in fact, is an interwoven lattice-work of cooperation and harmony. There are all sorts of things in nature to reduce and eliminate competition. And I was thinking about this in reference to Twins. As we noted, we once thought that the consensus-egalitarian way of interacting was most civil. But now I see that someone needs to be overall in charge, a senior administrator of the union, even if a veto-power is rarely used.

K. Let me say it – this eliminates any possibility of competition! It’s just like in the natural world. Each creature, generally speaking, has its own territory or specific food supply, and so competition does not occur. And if Wisdom is overall in charge, but tasked with protecting and securing happiness for Love, then there’s nothing at all to fight about. Elenchus, are we ready for the Summerland marriage?

E. If you are willing, I believe we could be married right away. I would hope for this, because I need you. And we might even have a baby waiting for us over there. In any case, much clearer than before, I now see what my part is. I think the main question will be for you to consider: How much do you trust me? You would be placing yourself under my authority. It’s not a small decision. The fact is, it’s not really restrictive but meant to be totally liberating. But if you don’t see it this way, then you won't want to be married – not until you can agree to all this with complete joy and rest to your soul.

K. It could be something frightening, especially if I allow images of past suffering to beset me. However, we are required to sort this out. The hidden energies, the morphic fields, which direct Twins never let up, just as the unseen forces directing a compass needle never abate. These sacred energies compel us to emulate Mother-Father God. And we can never be truly happy until we fulfill our destiny this way.

E. Whether we know it or not, each of us is under God’s total authority. We’re not given the choice of who to marry, Twins were made for each other.

K. It's actually a cosmic arranged marriage, decided by Parent(s), as it was done in olden times.

E. And we’re not even really given the choice of whether to enter the marriage or not. To decline is to invite great suffering, and then an insanity, and one's ruin. The lure of the independent life is a gross illusion. There is no place in the universe to hide from sacred destiny -- not even in the Dark Realms in some cave -- nowhere one might flee to escape the corroding nightmare of loneliness and futility, the daily prayer for death, without one's true eternal mate. Andrew Jackson Davis said it this way -- and I'd like us to particularly note, Wisdom is to be, for her, a "haven of rest," not a threat to what she needs for happiness:

life-giver versus governor

The Love-principle, or the female, is the actuating, the prompting, the life-giving portion of the eternal Oneness; and the Wisdom-principle, or the male, is the governing, the guiding, and harmonizing portion; and thus the two are One in essence and organization.

unspeakably, desperately lonely versus mere iceberg, cold, unbeautiful

Love, or the female, with her immortal and impetuous springs of life, beauty, and animation, is, if unguided and unassociated with Wisdom, unspeakably lonely, and very liable to misdirection; on the other hand, Wisdom, or the male, with his immortal attribute of harmony and government, is, if unassociated with, and deprived of, the life-giving elements of Love, a mere iceberg, a mere isolated oak, cold and unbeautiful...

If ye are truthfully married, then will ye have mutual or parallel attractions, corresponding desires, and similar constitutional tendencies; and where the one goes, the other will go; and on Earth, as in the higher spheres of existence, ye will have one home, one purpose, one destiny, one God, and one religion.

haven of rest

Where a union is perfect, there is no conflict; when Wisdom decides, Love will respond. If a wife loves her companion, she will involuntarily keep his commandments, which to her are Wisdom's ways [inspired by God]; and if a husband loves his companion, he will treat her not as an inferior, not as a superior, not as one incapable of exercising reason; but he will honor and protect, and guide, and develop her indestructible sensibilities, and be to her a haven of rest.

K. "Involuntary"! - when she truly perceives that he's being led by inspiration, she's ok now, is good with it, totally. 

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