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Soulmate, Myself:
Omega Point

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Elenchus. Very often in our discussions we’ve referenced many mystical experiences.

Kairissi. The “coming home,” the “you are just like me,” the “utter familiarity,” the “happiest moments of my life.”

E. These experiences are sprinkled liberally among the WG articles, are not hard to find.

K. But you have a new comment about them?

E. I was reading a synopsis of a Krishnamurti lecture which led me to some questions. I would encourage our readers to have a look at the transcript, it’s not very long:

an attentive disinterested mind will lead us to constant astonishing discoveries

28.Aug.1955. Some say “what’s next?” after listening to these lectures. There's an assumption that I have something you need and you want to get it. I have nothing to offer but advice that you observe your own mind. You, your own mind, is what’s important, not what I say. You cannot seek truth or God with a hidden motive of “what’s next?.” Your own attentive mind will lead you to constant discovery but only when you are not seeking a result at all. Then, you will see an astonishing thing come out of your attention.

K. Was Krishnamurti talking about romantic love?

E. No, but the subject matter indirectly impinged upon our favorite topic, and this set me to pondering.

K How would you summarize what you saw?

E. Krishnamurti says, if we observe our own minds, to simply notice its activities, without judgment or hope for reward, like spiritual growth, then the mind itself will begin to enter a mystical world of new insights, “astonishing things” will begin to come to our attention. This endeavor is what he calls “meditation.”

K. And I think you would agree that the attentive mind will come to know insights.

E. I know this is true because I’ve made a practice of “simply noticing” the antics of the mind. And I have, in fact, gained many of those “astonishing things.”

K. (silence)

E. But here’s the strange thing. My first encounter with the “astonishing things” was not prompted by any conscious effort to “open my eyes.” It happened without “meditation” – and it began in conjunction with realizing who you are to me.

K. Krishnamurti seems to be saying that one cannot enter those mystical perceptions without his form of meditation. But it didn’t happen that way with us? – or did it?

E. What do you mean, Kriss?

K. While it’s true that we embraced no conscious effort to still the mind, maybe there was a synthetic way for this to happen.

E. Let’s explore this. And let me say that our comments here are not meant to definitive or the last word. We’re trying to understand like anyone else.

K. However, we are in somewhat of a unique position to make enquiry: (1) you have in recent years adopted Krishnamurti’s advice on “simply noticing,” and (2) we have our own bona fide mystical experiences based on our Twin Soul bond.

E. Here’s something I know for sure. I did in fact enter that mystical world of “astonishing things” almost immediately after our major encounter at mid-life. We spoke of this in the “waves” article.

K. So, that part is not theory. I guess our question is, if “mediation” is the only way to initiate the “opening of the eyes,” was our encounter a form of it?

E. Let’s proceed very carefully here. Many loose ends. One thing coming to mind is this: Krishnamurti makes a big point about not having any hidden agenda, no cloaked motives for seeking the truth. There’s some application of this concerning our major encounter in that I was not in a lovey-dovey frame of mind when I spoke to you; in fact, I was hostile toward you.

K. But this did not stop the mystical experience from arriving. You were definitely of a disinterested mind, meaning, you were not trying to get anything from me. We could say, you went a bit too far in that direction.

E. But my anger did not derail the mystical experience.

K. What does this mean? Krishnamurti might say that, as you had no “profit motive,” your mind was in a state of attention concerning the moment.

E. I’m not sure if I like this explanation.

K. But it actually does fit the facts somewhat.

E. Here’s another angle to explore. In Krishnamurti’s lecture he explained that if people come to him looking for a final answer because they see him as some sort of guru, then they’ll be disappointed. They’ll continue to live in their despair and inner-emptiness, even if they “simply notice” the mind’s activities.

K. This reminds me of something. Recall the statements of Joudri on Twin Soul development. She felt that Twins might come together only after reaching a certain level of maturity and independence; that,

“an individual must be strong in identity before being able to complement the twin. When the twins meet, their complementarities are not entirely fulfilled but open to further advance. The two have achieved sufficient security within themselves that they are not dependent on another for a sense of self. Then they are ready to recognize the other, to stand with the other, and to surmount the inevitable conflicts that arise in the course of human relationships.

K. Joudri emphasizes this stalwart sense of independence.

appearing to each other when least needed

“It could almost be said that the twin appears … when least needed, when each half-soul has reached its highest point of independence in the divided state. This is also the pinnacle of aloneness. Every man and woman must climb the mountain alone, able to stand firm against the high winds that buffet the elevated soul. It is then, out of the mist, that the twin appears, not in response to emotional need but to fulfill the deepest need of the soul. … [It is] the end of loneliness forever.

E. This is a very important point, Kriss. Please connect the dots so everyone will understand how this relates to what Krishnamurti said.

K. He said people were coming to him like a patron saint or holy man. They wanted to lean on him, be in his presence, hoping that his coattails would give them spirituality. But he said everyone must do this alone. There is no piggy-backing into the kingdom of God.

E. And now tell us how lovers can fall into this trap.

K. Your Twin Soul is not a proxy for your own personal link to God. Each of us must forge this nexus, each must “open the eyes,” no one, not even your sacred beloved, can do this for you; rather, he cannot induce a higher level of consciousness merely by his presence.

E. Kriss, I have to say, you are correct. What you say has to be right, because each stands before God as an individual. – And yet, when I “first met you,” when I realized who you are to me, your very presence did seem to open the floodgates of insight and inspiration.

K. Darling Dear, I think we need to be careful about making unwarranted conclusions.

E. How do you see it?

K. I’m sure I’ll understand more as time goes by, but I think our meeting was so jarring to us that it shut down the chattering in the head…

E. Temporarily closed down the ego’s home-base of operations.

K. And when this happened, the true self naturally rose from the depths to instruct us.

E. This seems correct to me. The jarring nature of our “first meeting” jump-started but did not complete the process. This means that a requirement to forge one’s own relationship and sightedness with God was not done away. I know this is true because, after that meeting, I tried to sweep it all under the rug and pretend it never happened.

K. But repression didn’t work for us anymore, as the “jump-starting” unleashed so much energy that, eventually, we had to acknowledge what happened.

E. And when we did we began to build a proper foundation of one-on-one relationship with God, which then solidified our Twin relationship.

K. As a rough-sketch outline, I think this is what happened to us. As we look at the details, there were no short-cuts for us. From a larger perspective, we had to do it according to Krishnamurti’s playbook, just a little out of order.