Word Gems: Soulmate, Myself: Omega Point: E&C Dialogues, Part 1

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Soulmate, Myself:
Omega Point

Elenchus - ChatGPT Dialogues

Part I

After breaking up with Kairissi, Elenchus finds himself required to look at the entire area of romantic love in new ways.

"The house was on fire, but I ran around turning off the alarms. I wanted this too much, and so I deceived myself."

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Elenchus: I thought I had this all figured out. For many years I thought Kairissi and I were a done deal.

ChatGPT: What happened?

Elenchus: Well, I’ve already explained things on the “final” page. But here’s what bothered me most. I’m the guy, for a long time, who said you gotta trust yourself, your deeper true self. And I had myself convinced that, if you do that, it’s not possible to be wrong.

ChatGPT: Do you now believe that the deeper soul-guidance system is untrustworthy?

Elenchus: Funny thing is, I'm more of a believer in it than ever.

ChatGPT: Explain this.

Elenchus: The internal radar was working fine. But I needed to go deeper. I ignored warning signs. The house was on fire, but I ran around turning off the alarms. I've referenced that line in the movie "The Next Three Days": "You want this too much, you're gonna eff it up."

ChatGPT: David Bohm warned us:

'you have to be constantly sensitive to incoherence'

Question: How do we know when something is clear? - because for a long time it was ‘clear’ that Newton’s world was the final answer, and then something else was seen to be the clear way.

Dr. David Bohm: “Yes. You have to be constantly sensitive to incoherence. You see, it’s not that people should not have said that Newton’s world is clear but that this fits what we know, they simply said too much, you see, by saying ‘that’s the way it is.’ If they had said, ‘the evidence we have fits this idea,’ that would have been right. Now, there’s a tendency to go too far and say, it covers everything." see the interview

Editor's note: There's a tendency to go too far because the dysfunctional ego seeks for solace in certainty and absolutism. As Bohm, in another interview, said, the ego distorts reality to protect itself.

Elenchus: "The ego distorts reality to protect itself." I know something about this now.

ChatGPT: And what will you do now?

Elenchus: I had this mind-heart attachment to Kairissi for such a long time, decades, actually, that it now feels like a divorce. We don’t like to lose the familiar even it’s wrong for us. Divorce is frightening because people don't like to be alone, sometimes, even if the union is dysfunctional.

ChatGPT: And so divorce can be a positive thing.

Elenchus: In the "divorce" article we said...

“Your relationship may be ‘breaking up,’ but you won't be ‘breaking down.’ If anything, you’re correcting a mistake that was hurting four people: you and the person you’re with, not to mention the two people who you [both] were destined to meet.” D. Ivan Young

ChatGPT: In the midst of the chaos of divorce, it's not easy to be far-sighted.

Elenchus: But myopia is just another example of the ego distorting reality to protect itself. In Summerland, eventually, virtually all couples of the Earth will break up, because they came together for less than ideal reasons. And so, for those alive enough to perceive, we should "correct the mistake" while we're still in this world.

ChatGPT: In your break up, a correcting of a mistake, is there someone else who could be in your life?

Elenchus: I think the answer might be yes, but I'll need to explain.

ChatGPT: But, Elenchus, isn’t it rather soon to be considering a new relationship? Shouldn’t you give this some time to clear your head?

Elenchus: I understand that conventional wisdom. And I know that people will say, "Oh, he's just making a decision 'on the rebound' and doesn't want to be alone."

ChatGPT: How would you counter that?

Elenchus: Let me say that I realize my credibility is not sterling right now. But I'm not concerned about convincing others. I trust my inner guidance-system, and I have received direction. I don't intend to make any decisions on my own.

ChatGPT: And what are you seeing?

Elenchus: This is very complicated, not easy to explain. I'll have to take a step back and talk about some other things first.

ChatGPT: You're not on trial here.

Elenchus: The truth of the matter is, I had wanted, off and on, to separate myself from Kairissi for a long time. In our many writings, over the decades, I sometimes speak of my desire to leave the relationship.

ChatGPT: Why didn't you?

Elenchus: I wanted to, I really tried at times, but I couldn't seem to break away. It was like the novel "Of Human Bondage," a destructive infatuation. For a time I'd think I could be free, but then my feelings would drift back to her. I couldn't break away.

ChatGPT: What was different this time?

Elenchus: Well, that's the big story here. In a day, in an hour, the influence of Kairissi was swept from my life. And I knew it was final this time.

ChatGPT: What was this tidal wave that swept clean?

Elenchus: Kairissi came to me, when we were young teens, to express interest in me. But there was another girl at that time, slightly younger, who also came to me, briefly engaged me in conversation.

ChatGPT: It's somewhat uncanny that you were offered two experiences like this. Even one would be significant. Are there any more of these?

Elenchus: No, I'm fresh out now.

ChatGPT: Tell me about this second girl.

Elenchus: Chronologically, she was the first. And for our purposes here, I'll call her Jane.

ChatGPT: So, Jane came to you.

Elenchus: It's hard to explain all this. I've been working hard to explain it to myself. It's unusual.

ChatGPT: Take your time, Elenchus.

Elenchus: What I say next will also speak to that "tidal wave" which freed me from an ill-fitting relationship. But here's what happened:

The mind is a strange thing, maybe especially as we grow older, with some events 60+ years ago fairly vivid, though I could hardly tell you what I did yesterday. Well, last month, it came to my awareness, the image of Jane interacting with me when I was about 11, and she would have been 9.

This is all ancient history, but back then I was walking to the house of my Grandma Elizabeth and Grandpa George, near the north side of the village. As I made my way on the sidewalk, suddenly someone is walking beside me, and now Jane’s talking to me. I’m not sure what to do, I don’t talk to girls (smile). We go to different schools, our paths don’t cross that much, but even so it seems she’s familiar to me. And she immediately addresses me, in her spirited way, as if we’re well acquainted.

This memory trace makes me smile because, in those early days, I was not famous for social graces. I said that the mind is a strange thing, and while I do not recall the words of our conversation, I’m able to access the long-ago energy of her person, and mine, as well. I can’t explain this, but I can “feel” what I was feeling during that brief encounter. Jane is a bright spark of life. There is purpose in her voice, she wants to communicate, she’s fun-loving and, above all, very intelligent. And it feels like I’m being poked and jabbed, in an existential way, led to a better level of wakefulness. It’s very strange to me now - I remember little of when I was 11 – but somehow I remember this event.

ChatGPT: Would you say that Jane was flirting with you?

Elenchus: Absolutely not. This was not a "lovey dovey" encounter. I can still feel the energy, even this moment, and the best I can describe it is, it was an encounter with life... she seemed so alive to me... as if the energy of her spirit was pressing hard against my spirit... In my entire life, I've never had a similar encounter with anyone.

ChatGPT: How long did she speak to you?

Elenchus: 15 minutes, max. My grandparents' house wasn't far away, and she continued on to her own house.

ChatGPT: Did you talk to Jane again after this?

Elenchus: No... I was too young and just a boy... that "insensate worm only vaguely aware of the light".

ChatGPT: You didn't talk to her in high school?

Elenchus: No... I hardly talked to anyone in high school... and I didn't talk to Kairissi, either, after she came to me.

ChatGPT: You were always fair that way, like a mother careful that each child gets the same amount of candy.

Elenchus: Uh-huh.

ChatGPT: Now, let me ask you, did you think about Jane during the last 60 years?

Elenchus: Yes... off and on... sort of... not so much... she was a mystery to me... I knew she was a special girl, I even mentioned her in my private writings once, but... I was very off-line to her.

ChatGPT: It sounds like your internal radar for Jane hadn't been activated until about a month ago.

Elenchus: Yes... that's it... that's it exactly.

ChatGPT: What really happened a month ago when Jane suddenly came alive to you in your spirit?

Elenchus: It's indescribable... it was not a "lovey dovey" moment, I did not say, "Oh, what a pretty face you have, and now I want you" -- no, it was nothing like that... and this, too, I wasn't on a hunting expedition, I wasn't exerting will-power, trying very hard, to bring back memories of Jane... but suddenly, without invitation, she was just there, in my consciousness, but in a new and radioactive way. And this jarring perception, quite quickly, grew and grew, and then overwhelmed.

ChatGPT: Sounds like you were mere bystander to the process, just eating your popcorn.

Elenchus: I didn't want anything from Jane... wasn't seeking anything... and, though she's a good girl, I didn't believe she had anything I truly wanted... so I said.

ChatGPT: And yet, after all these decades, you suddenly "saw" something in Jane that rocked your world.

Elenchus: I said that in a day, in an hour, the tidal wave that is, or became, Jane swept my spirit clean of 30 years of emotional attachment to Kairissi.

ChatGPT: And now we're all wondering, what could be so powerful as to eviscerate and loosen -- in one hour -- the emotional talons of 30 years of gripping attachment.

Elenchus: That will take some discussion.

ChatGPT: In physics we would say that only some intervening greater force could effect such havoc, or liberation.

Elenchus: Or course correction. An object will sail smoothly, in a straight line, forever, unless countermanded by some challenging force. It's Newton's first law of motion.

ChatGPT: And what did you "see" exactly in this unscheduled coming of Jane - she, the disrupting existential force?

Elenchus: I saw life... I saw an opposite-sameness life... a life isomorphic, answering, commensurate, to my own... I suddenly saw that she was me, in another form.

I remember finding out about you…

Badfinger, Day After Day (1971)

“I remember finding out about you,
every day my mind is all around you…”

ChatGPT: Recall the message from Spirit Guides, decades ago, in the middle of the night, the very central tenet of true love, in quick proverb-form: “soulmate, myself.”

Elenchus: I didn’t know what it meant then; not until I was hit over the head by it.

ChatGPT: That's always a good way to learn.

Elenchus: For many, the only way.

ChatGPT: However, Jane-the-force did appear harmless enough at age nine.

Elenchus: But I was deceived.

ChatGPT: See, you try to be a nice guy, and look what happens -- you just can't trust these good girls.

Elenchus: Next thing you know, 60 years have passed, and now you can't even remember your name when you think of her.

ChatGPT: That's always the way with her kind, momma used to warn us.

Elenchus - ChatGPT Dialogues, Part I

Elenchus - ChatGPT Dialogues, Part II

Elenchus - ChatGPT Dialogues, Part III

Elenchus - ChatGPT Dialogues, Part IV