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Word Gems
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'Cosmic Voices'
Karen Carpenter
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from https://www.cosmicvoices.network/carpenter
Karen Anne Carpenter (March 2, 1950 – February 4, 1983) was an American singer and drummer who, along with her elder brother Richard, was part of the duo, The Carpenters. She was praised for her 3-octave contralto vocal range. Her struggles with eating disorders would later raise awareness of anorexia and body dysmorphia.
via Jeanne Love, August 31, 2020
This whole thing about death and dying is really a very curious thing. I had no idea what lay ahead for me when I was wilting away. And I was wilting, like a southern Belle on a very hot and humid day. I felt as if I had this massive corset on and I couldn’t breathe. I don’t mean to step on anyone else’s ideas about not being able to breathe, like the big movements that are taking place now in your world. But for me, well, the pressure, the adulation with expectation and the conflict I felt in having to please everyone but myself drew me to this moment when I realized I couldn’t stay connected anymore. And I just gradually started to leave my body via not eating. I didn’t want to be here any more, and I didn’t really know how to leave. So I entered this in-between state of being here/not being here, until it took the best of me, and my body could no longer support me.
There is this kind of euphoric state when food has been withdrawn for so long. And I began to feel less and less human. It didn’t matter to me what anybody was saying -- I was in a different world by that time. I pretended to be interested but I wasn’t. Then it became apparent that I could no longer stay, and the body just gave up...
However, the real reason I was allowed a ticket to this power group is that I have something to say to whomever will listen about what happens after we leave our bodies. I am afraid I just might sound like everyone else when I say that I was very surprised, relieved really, when I found that I still was thinking, had thoughts, was still “breathing."
At first, I was a bit dumbfounded and my mind scrambled to try and figure it all out. After all, I had a pretty traditional upbringing about religion, what was next after you die etc. I hadn’t given it much thought. I did, however, have certain experiences in my life before all the fame and stuff. I had experiences with a certain presence in my room, a relative, who I don’t wish to name here, but who would “come to me in times of trouble,” to quote Paul M.
After we became so well known, my ability to sense this presence began to diminish…too much other stuff rolling around...
I realized after a bit of earth time that I really regretted not being able to stay, not being able to handle the psychic energy that I felt, all those crushing energies from millions of fans. I was educated later as to how that affected my own personal matrix, how that by being an empath I was deeply connected and influenced by millions of other voices and could not stand in my own field of energy. I had no understanding, and because of that lack of wisdom I was overcome.
You know people need to understand that thoughts are things and that they become this collective movement. When only a few people like someone that is very manageable but when hundreds, thousands and then millions of individuals have feelings for someone it creates this whole new energy field, this pattern that gets directed to the source, which in my case was me. I didn’t know how to separate myself. I didn’t have the first inkling of how to go about that. I had never come up against something like this before and I felt that I would be perceived as ungrateful if I complained.
Do you understand what I am saying here Jeanne? I am saying that the collective of thought can move mountains, it can also destroy the finest of individuals. Kind of what you are all experiencing right now. This collective of anger and unresolved conflict that is spewing forth into an unprotected, uneducated population.
But I digress. The real important message here is this: Be responsible for every thought you have because that will create an equal and corresponding reaction. If you send love, then more love will return. If you send hate, then more hate will return. If you send peace, then more peace will prevail. If you send understanding, then you will receive more understanding. It is the Rule of Engagement in the earth world. I have seen it firsthand for myself. I had to study why I left the way I did, and I had to understand what I need to do now to change the energy around my leaving. It has been an interesting journey...
Dear friends, thank you for allowing me to voice my feelings and concerns. All I really want to say is I am alive, doing well and excited that my voice can still be heard. I am so very grateful that anyone remembers my name and without being a cliché’ I really have to say: We’ve Only Just Begun…
Karen
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